Sapphirism

I am stumbling in the dark, Speechless and afraid They think it's all in my head But this is too tangible, concrete. When I grow up, this too shall pass. When it passes, I'll grow But I'll be stunted and crooked, Because some wounds, when left untreated Leave scars that never heal. I don't know how to battle this, And I'm the only one who sees it. I know I'm at an impasse, But I don't know how to come out. I might seem calm, collected. But inside, I'm a storm. It's all swirling in my head Am I doing right or wrong?

You know that you are strong, You've faced what is pain. You know what it's like to be like this-- Cracking from the strain. Now that I'm facing this, Can't you just help me out? I thought that we were good friends, But you just sit there and pout. Am I truly a bad person? I don't know where I went wrong. Is it too much to ask of you, For me, can't you be strong? I thought what we had would be forever But now we're drifting apart... There's no wedge, no knife, no scissors What is breaking my heart? I don't know what to do now, Should I walk away or fight? Can I covet what we had before? What is even right? I don't know who I am now, I don't know who you are Now looking back, I can't believe Did we really go that far? Should I do something about this Or should I leave it be? Can I hope to achieve anything Or is it just hurting me? Maybe we never fought Maybe it was all untrue, But then why do I feel like I am losing you? Photo by  Anni Roe